A Reset
It’s time for a reset at The Growth Blog.
My last post on this blog was a couple of years ago, and let’s be honest… most of my blogs were trash anyways. Thank you to anyone who read them.
From the beginning of my business, I was trying to be someone I’m not. I was trying to sound overly professional and erased my own voice in the process. I was focused on being helpful with household and wellness travel tips and really wasn’t benefiting anyone in the process. As a Capricorn, I don’t really do vulnerability very well. When I’m going through it, I will isolate (sometimes to a dramatic degree for months). But, my Cancer rising keeps me swimming in my feelings under the surface most times. Folks who know me well know just how erratic I can be emotionally, and how limited my filter is in real life. So to that end, its time to get more real.
Life has been busting me upside the head lately. Its always been fascinating to me how you can present on social media and in public as one way but, be dealing with personal turmoils and trauma. I don’t share the sobbing sessions, or the uncertain thoughts that plague my brain, nor do I share what that bank account hitting for either. But, this is exactly why Minding My Garden exists, to show you can be well and experience joy when life is life-ing. So, moving forward, I’m trying to be more transparent and honest about the messy, inconsistent, and sometimes challenging realities of growing and flourishing. Especially when life gets complicated deep down in a valley season.
The new Growth Blog content is going to be more first person, more musings and personal observations but, I’ll keep the household tips and wellness travel and me time rituals themes too. I plan to write more in my own voice. I want y’all to hear and feel me, cause I got something to say. There might be some babbling, some grammatical errors, some shit that just doesn’t make any sense and that’s just what it is. Minding my garden ain’t perfect, and its about time I stopped striving for perfection like it even exists.
My goal is to drop blogs more consistently moving forward (right now I’m thinking Fridays), and I hope I do but, I can’t make any promises. I foresee dropping random blogs when I feel the creative urge from time to time. The plan is to link this blog with my Substack, because at heart, I’ve always wanted to Wendell Berry this thing on out. He is the famous Kentucky poet and writer that homesteads in Henry County, Kentucky. I love writing but, the PhD I finished in 2018 beat the desire to do so right on up outta me. Then, between legal motions and creating trainings and policy analysis for my full time jobs, I didn’t even have the bandwidth for writing for me. And, I certainly haven’t been bold enough to share it with y’all.
At the end of the day, I’m just trying to figure things out for what I’m calling the “second half” of life. Because the burnout, and the centering life around a job, constantly making my time beholden to others, and most importantly, sacrificing my pleasure, that’s all dead. Over time I’ll be determining what works, what doesn’t, and how I can find community with my people on this blog, on this website, and beyond. At the end of the day its all gotta feel good to me. If you join me on this journey, I have nothing but gratitude. The blog reset starts now.
